we don't see things as they are we seem them as we are
Anais Nin
DAY 5
VERSE: "unless you are faithful in small matters, you won't be faithful in large one" Luke 16:10
QUESTION" what happened to me recently that I now realize was a test from God? what are the greatest matters God has entrusted to me?
ANSWER: everyday for me is a test.. I believe that as followers of God we are always being tested. to see how we handle things that we are faced with. I know for me sometimes I fail those tests, not because I didn't know the answer maybe it was because I got tired of running that race... my grandpa use to say" sometimes in life your not OK, and you need take a break" well lately that is what I have been doing with myself... I'm very out going and social but lately more than ever I have been vey introverted.. not sure why just have.. I haven't been there for people like I need to be. God has blessed me with the gift of changing things and being able to solove problems for people and I've just checked out for awhile and it shouldnt be like that I need to always have an open door for those that need an ear or a voice... I need to come back home....
Friday, October 30, 2009
the book
day 4
Verse: "this world is fading away, along with everything it craves. but if you do the will of God, you will live forever" 1 John 2:17
question to consider: Since I was made to last forever, what is the one thing I should stop doing and the one thing I should start today?
answer: as humans there are so many things we need to stop doing. this question made me think... I know I need to stop comparing myself to worldly people. I have always been different. in the way I think, feel, love, and speak. and for the longest time I hated that I wanted to be like everyone else and casually date someone without thinking of the long run, or being the fun girls who hang out drink, and dance... I never got into any of that.lol I just need to be me.. flaws and all just bhatti and start allowing people to see the real me, not the me that I make up for show... the one who has loser moments and hangs out w/her brothers, and cries at movies. not the dolled up funny, out going person I made up...
Verse: "this world is fading away, along with everything it craves. but if you do the will of God, you will live forever" 1 John 2:17
question to consider: Since I was made to last forever, what is the one thing I should stop doing and the one thing I should start today?
answer: as humans there are so many things we need to stop doing. this question made me think... I know I need to stop comparing myself to worldly people. I have always been different. in the way I think, feel, love, and speak. and for the longest time I hated that I wanted to be like everyone else and casually date someone without thinking of the long run, or being the fun girls who hang out drink, and dance... I never got into any of that.lol I just need to be me.. flaws and all just bhatti and start allowing people to see the real me, not the me that I make up for show... the one who has loser moments and hangs out w/her brothers, and cries at movies. not the dolled up funny, out going person I made up...
Sunday, October 25, 2009
the book
day 3
verse " you Lord, give perfect peace to those who keep their purpose firm and put their trust in you" Isaiah 26:3
question to ponder: what would my family and friends say is the driving force of my life? what do I want to be?
answer: my family and friends think that I don't make enough time for life or just living and having fun... everyone sees me as structured person w/ no leisure time... And for the most part that is true. The people close to me, would say my driving force would be fear... fear of being left behind be being like my family( I love my family very much) BUT... They just don't have it together and sometimes I am afraid that I will just give up and settle for what life hands me... that is the scariest feeling that I have ever felt. I come from a family that has never amounted to anything... I am the first in my family to graduate and go on to college, I'm the the last woman in my family... they have all been in many marriages that have failed and given on life... so YEAH, fear does drive me I am afraid of being left behind or just allowing myself to fall behind...
WHAT DO I WANT TO BE???
well that is simple... I just wanna be happy, without fear of loosing it.
verse " you Lord, give perfect peace to those who keep their purpose firm and put their trust in you" Isaiah 26:3
question to ponder: what would my family and friends say is the driving force of my life? what do I want to be?
answer: my family and friends think that I don't make enough time for life or just living and having fun... everyone sees me as structured person w/ no leisure time... And for the most part that is true. The people close to me, would say my driving force would be fear... fear of being left behind be being like my family( I love my family very much) BUT... They just don't have it together and sometimes I am afraid that I will just give up and settle for what life hands me... that is the scariest feeling that I have ever felt. I come from a family that has never amounted to anything... I am the first in my family to graduate and go on to college, I'm the the last woman in my family... they have all been in many marriages that have failed and given on life... so YEAH, fear does drive me I am afraid of being left behind or just allowing myself to fall behind...
WHAT DO I WANT TO BE???
well that is simple... I just wanna be happy, without fear of loosing it.
Saturday, October 24, 2009
the book
day 2
Quote: "I am your creator. You were in my care even before you were born" Isaiah 44:2
question: I know that God uniquely created me. Wat areas of my personality, background, and physical appearance am I struggling to accept?
Answer:
Even though we know that God created us we still have a hard time trying to believe that we are perfect just the way we are... I know that we all have flaws and all but sometimes as humans we look at ourselves a failures because we don't get things right.. I know for me I have alot of things to accept about myself and each day I try a little harder to do that. One of my fears is allowing people to know how I feel or to know my fears itself... so here i go bare naked and all(not literally though) I need to accept myself for who I am.. I am not the life of the party or do I drink and get crazy nor am I the girl who wants all the guys to be all over me... i accept that... i hate my arms.. no matter what I do they still are big.lol I need to accept who I am and stop trying to fit in with people and just be me. even if they don't like me oh well... I know I may never m=find my place with people but Ive found my place with myself
Quote: "I am your creator. You were in my care even before you were born" Isaiah 44:2
question: I know that God uniquely created me. Wat areas of my personality, background, and physical appearance am I struggling to accept?
Answer:
Even though we know that God created us we still have a hard time trying to believe that we are perfect just the way we are... I know that we all have flaws and all but sometimes as humans we look at ourselves a failures because we don't get things right.. I know for me I have alot of things to accept about myself and each day I try a little harder to do that. One of my fears is allowing people to know how I feel or to know my fears itself... so here i go bare naked and all(not literally though) I need to accept myself for who I am.. I am not the life of the party or do I drink and get crazy nor am I the girl who wants all the guys to be all over me... i accept that... i hate my arms.. no matter what I do they still are big.lol I need to accept who I am and stop trying to fit in with people and just be me. even if they don't like me oh well... I know I may never m=find my place with people but Ive found my place with myself
reading
I love to read... I know it's kinda of boring and old... but I just love it... it amazes me what write about... the other day I was getting ready for class and I had some time to do nothing(got up early...) and I walked by my bookshelf and I saw "The Purpose Driven Life" by Rick Warren. I know I know its been out forever and a day... but I never got into reading it or maybe it was not the time for me to read it. So I picked it up and started reading it.. it is a book that you read for 40 days each day... I'm on day 2 so far so good. at the end it has question for you to think about.. I plan to share my thoughts on that question.
Day 1
quote "everything got started in him and finds its purpose in him" Colossians 1:16
question
in spite of all the advertising around me, how can I remind myself that my life is not about me but for living for God?
answer:
I believe that there are times where we forget that our lives have a purpose for something greater and we settle for less. then there are times where we get wrapped up in our own lives and forget that life isn't about us, but how we can make the world a better place. I know for me I have to let my own thoughts free and allow myself to feel more and think less...
Day 1
quote "everything got started in him and finds its purpose in him" Colossians 1:16
question
in spite of all the advertising around me, how can I remind myself that my life is not about me but for living for God?
answer:
I believe that there are times where we forget that our lives have a purpose for something greater and we settle for less. then there are times where we get wrapped up in our own lives and forget that life isn't about us, but how we can make the world a better place. I know for me I have to let my own thoughts free and allow myself to feel more and think less...
my life
I have been on this whole life changing path... maybe because I always feel like Im off my path... It's funny because people always say that life gets easier when you get older, but it doesnt life seems to get alot harder each and everyday, and sometimes I wonder how we make it through life.. I've been blessed because no matter how far I have fallen from the tree, God has always blessed me and watched over me, and I realized as I get older my faith has to get me through... If i don't have faith and hope what do I have??? so I am going to take this step and really put my all into being a better person for myelf, those around me and God....
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