the book

day 3
verse " you Lord, give perfect peace to those who keep their purpose firm and put their trust in you" Isaiah 26:3

question to ponder: what would my family and friends say is the driving force of my life? what do I want to be?

answer: my family and friends think that I don't make enough time for life or just living and having fun... everyone sees me as structured person w/ no leisure time... And for the most part that is true. The people close to me, would say my driving force would be fear... fear of being left behind be being like my family( I love my family very much) BUT... They just don't have it together and sometimes I am afraid that I will just give up and settle for what life hands me... that is the scariest feeling that I have ever felt. I come from a family that has never amounted to anything... I am the first in my family to graduate and go on to college, I'm the the last woman in my family... they have all been in many marriages that have failed and given on life... so YEAH, fear does drive me I am afraid of being left behind or just allowing myself to fall behind...

WHAT DO I WANT TO BE???
well that is simple... I just wanna be happy, without fear of loosing it.