Growing

Growing. Is a word that I am starting to hate. Everyday I look up and I am not the same person I have done so many things in my life that have guided me into so many directions and somehow I ended on this path. I know that I use to want all of these things that I no longer want. I have forgiven myself for all of the bad things I once did but I also know there is so much about me that I haven't forgotten. Change isn't easy and growing is even harder and when people think your strong they never ask how you are really doing. It's crazy to think that so many people think I don't feel I write these blogs and my voice goes unnoticed or maybe I am scared for people to know who I am because that means all of my flaws come to the light. I know my flaws and I have tried to fix all of my flaws but I guess I am getting to a point where I am letting all of the people in my life slip away. I no longer need people around me I need God to surround me and make me forgive myself for all of the things that I have done. I know that I have falling short but I hope all of my errors God can help me forgive myself.